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5.14.2025 What value do I add?

I often find myself circling back to the same question.

What value do I add?

I don’t mean to ask you this, but I also do not mean it rhetorically. I’m sure anyone reading this could figure out some value that I add to something. To you, or the economy, or to someone else. But this is a question I often ask myself in regards to specific activities, sometimes.

Recently, I’ve been posting on X dot com, “the everything app.” When I first started, I told myself that I was funny. That you need to be delusional if you want to draw an audience. That of course I had something to provide to the platform-- to people. Because, have you met me?

And it worked. I’ve somehow amassed over 400 followers in less than 3 months. Less than 3 months.
And now I find myself asking the question again-- What value do I add?

To be completely honest, I don’t know. Sometimes I start writing and the vision becomes clear to me. “The value I add is .”

I don’t know.

I still think I’m funny. But am I that much funnier than other people?
Sometimes I’m profound. But are any of my thoughts original?
Am I just a woman? That doesn’t sit right with me. That makes me feel a bit sick, actually.

Perhaps exposure has diluted my delusion. I understand now that it’s actually quite difficult to provide a unique service to people on social media. Sometimes I feel like I’ve already said everything I have to say. Or, sometimes, that I can’t say what I want to say.

Around week 3 of posting on X, I gained over 100 followers in less than a week. I started with about 30 and, by the time the plateau hit, I was at over 150 followers. All of this pressure, coupled with shit happening in “real life”, caused me to burn out. I had someone tell me I need to rise to the occasion. That I shouldn’t let my momentum die. I had another person tell me that people followed me for me! That I shouldn’t feel too much pressure because they just want me!

I think twitter isn’t real.
I think these people don’t know me.
I think I don’t even know myself.

So what value do I add?

Saying I’m not sure again would be unsatisfactory. So I guess I’ll delude myself for a moment.

I am funny. I make people laugh. Sometimes I provide interesting insights. Sometimes I am a good conversationalist.

I am a woman, I guess, although I don’t see how that adds much value to my personality besides influencing a portion of the human condition which I experience. Which, I suppose, does influence who I am.

I guess maybe I just bring people joy? Maybe that’s the value I add?

I don’t want to hit post on empty space.
Waste of internet breathing room.

That’s not me. I know that.

What more can I provide?


until next time ~